Now I've been trying to write something all week but nothing has gone past a few paragraphs and it was never quite complete. Well this thing I told my friend about not writing cause my life is going crazy right now really got me thinking. Why am I gonna let this upset control my life? Just because my ex is upsetting my life right now dosent mean I have to let it totally disrupt my life and make me quit doing the things I love to do! This is what poor blind Christians do! Something upsetting happens in their lives and it becomes a tragedy. This man is powerless compared to me! I have Enki on my side! Our True Father is helping me. Why should I have any fear or doubts?
Why are christian habits so hard to break? I mean this habit of freaking out and then pleading for help. Why can't there just be a switch in my brain I can flip that goes "oh, you're a Spiritual Satanist now? Here you go I'll turn off all your old christian bad habits and turn on all the new good habits!" I knew when I started this journey that there would be a lot of things that I needed to change, but wow! I never realized how enslaved I was until I was freed from it. Religious enslavement is a real thing. Most people don't really realize they are being enslaved as it happens. I knew there were going to be many changes to my life I would have to make. I knew they wouldn't all be easy but I swear I will continue to make these changes! I will am becoming the person I have been chasing after and searching for my whole life! Bringing Satan into my life has been the best decision I have ever made. I can already see the changes in myself.
I am not going to let this upset in my life take over my life like a christian does. I refuse to let this make me stop writing. Writing is something I love to do and I will continue to share my thoughts with those who will listen.
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