I'm Not Going To Magically Fix This For You

Recently I have been going through a lot of struggles in my life. I lost my drivers license, my (ex)husband, my home, and I am currently fighting for custody of my three kids. This all happened within the course of three months. I've been left with almost nothing but my close friends and family. When I became a Spiritual Satanist I felt a sense of comfort come into my life. It was nice to finally feel that relief, knowing I now had help coming from the most powerful force in the world. 

When I did my dedication I was living with my SUPER Christian mother. I Didn't do my dedication at her house mind you! My boyfriend helped me and let me do it at his house. Right after my dedication my mom and I had a falling out. She dosent agree with my lifestyle and probably never will. She could sense that something had happened. She knew something was diffrent about me but she couldn't put her finger on it. After a long night of fighting We both came to the conclusion that it was best if I moved out. It wasn't very peaceful. So I moved in with my boyfriend. It has been wonderful living with a man that truly appreciates me for who I am and shares my beliefs. 

During my time here I have been talking to Lucifer quite a bit, asking for help in dealing with family drama and such. Well one day I was laying in bed talking to him asking him to fix my problems with my ex husband. He told me "I'm not going to magically fix all this for you. You must empower yourself." 

It really hit me that day. Satan should not be looked at as Christians look at their savior. Satan is there to help you empower yourself so that you too may become a god. Gods take control of the situation. They don't sit around waiting for the other more powerful gods to swoop down and save them from their troubles! Now this dosen't mean you shouldn't ever ask for help. Just don't expect to not have to do any work to achieve your goal. 

When a Christian wants something they pray to their god and jesus. Then what do they do? They sit and wait ...and wait...and wait. I have many Christian friends and I see them do this all the time. They don't take steps to empower themself for fear it might not be what their god wants them to do. They worry it might mess up the elusive miracle they are waiting for. Then when nothing happens they just say "Oh well, God must have other plans for my life."  A few get upset and question why nothing ever happens in their lives. Uhh... Duhh! Because you are not taking any steps to reach your goals!  YOU are the one who controls your life! 

Satan can and does perform the things Christians call "miracles". But he wants us to empower ourselves so that we too can become a god. Being an ex-christian I know it is a diffrent way of thinking to become a god. Christianity teaches you that you are worthless. This is not true. 

From my understanding Spiritual Satanism is very much about empowering yourself to become a god. So empower yourself! Ask Satan for guidance in how to do this as it is diffrent with every person. And never forget that he and his demons are there for you and he loves you very much! 

                          Rain Freedom

My Search for Truth

I grew up in a Christian, Seventh Day Adventist household. I went to church every Saturday, I was taught to pray every night and before every meal. I did it all but always questioned why I was doing it. Yes I know I was told it was so I could go to heaven and be spared the wrath of hell, but still, why? Why was I always begging and pleading? Why was I pretending to eat the flesh and blood of Christ? Wasn't it considered wrong to eat human fleshing drink blood? 

From a very young age I had a great voice. I could sing very well. I was taught that being proud of what I could do with my vocals was a sin and I should only use it to praise god. Why couldn't I be proud of myself? I was very pretty. I couldn't be proud of that either. Growing up in this very conservative home really had a negative effect on my self worth and my self image. 

I went to Christian elementary/middle school and a boarding high school for a few months. Let me tell you from experience bad things that happen in these schools just get swept under the rug. And religious beliefs are drilled into your head the whole time. During this time I really started to question my beliefs and why I was so scared to really be myself. 

At this point in time I thought maybe I just needed to go to a different church. So I tried a few out. Still I felt that every time I prayed no one was really listening to me. 

Fast forward a few years of feeling lost and unheard, I was married and became Mormon. I was Mormon for about 4 years. The whole time questioning why I was doing this? Why was I doing something I had no faith in? Why was I on my knees every night begging and pleading for thing that I needed? Wasn't god supposed to be a loving god? Then why would he demand that every time I talk to him that I come to him in such a humiliating way? He seemed to never answer any of my prayers, in fact every time I prayed for something good to happen to me, things just seemed to get worse. 

Ask any Christian about why that happens, they will tell you that the lord really is answering your prayers. Just not the way you want him to. 

Finally I was finished with Christianity. I quit going to church. I quit praying. I quit reading the bible. I felt somewhat freed. I no longer had a religion telling me how I had to live my life. I knew something was missing from my life still. So I started researching different religious beliefs. The thing that seemed to be the closest to what I was looking for was paganism. But that was still a little off for me. Still wasn't the perfect fit for me. 

Fast forward again about a year through my husband and I breaking up. 

I met a man online. (He is now my boyfriend.) We hit it off right away. He was a spiritual Satanist. Right away I wanted to know more about this. So he sent me a series of videos that used verses from the bible to prove that god was not a loving god, he was in fact evil and spiteful! The videos proved a point that I had always pondered. Why was it ok when God did bad things like killing mass hoards of people and yet it is wrong to kill? 

I wanted to know what spiritual Satanism was. So the next thing he sent me was a website called Joy Of Satan. I read a little on it and I loved it! I knew that this was what was missing from my life! So the next few days I spent learning as much as I could on Spiritual Satanism. When I went to his house I knew I needed to do my dedication. Afterwards I was filled with energy and light. I had a wonderful talk with my True Father. 

I no longer have to beg and plead. I can simply talk to my Father who truly loves me. I get answers! He gives me power! He healed a leison in my brain and I have the MRI's to prove it! 

 

I used to be scared of Satanists. I assumed it was all a bunch of animal sacrifice and weird bullshit. I assumed that the people were all mean and rude but every Satanist I have met has been polite and very kind in helping me in my journey. Never judge a person based on their beliefs. 

This is all very new to me, but the more I learn the more I am empowered with knowledge of the truth. My path is only just beginning and I am very excited to see where it takes me!

                     -Rain Freedom